Where is Buffy when you need her?

Just realized the other day that everyone has their own demons, which they need to slay, or at least keep at bay. I wonder if they always have had them and I just haven’t noticed it before or maybe there’s a witch doctor with an office in town. It can be really hard to distinguish your own demons from others, and some of us are really good at letting others’ demons feed on us.

I had one of my worst days in several months yesterday. I had anxiety attacks that brought me down shaking and crying on the floor. I have been worst, but I sure as hell have been better. I feel better today and will try to do everything I can to prevent that demon taking over me again.

This said, I do not care what powers that have taken over you. I will hold you responsible for you actions, and I hope that you will do the same for me. Feeling crap is not an excuse for mistreating your friends.

I would like to say thank you to all my friends; you are truly wonderful! Be nice to yourself and others. Sometime we all need to breath, take a step back and relax. Just think that you yourself normally have good intentions, and then probably others have too. Try not to think of the worst-case explanation when you feel offended, or if you can’t help doing that, try at least to think of one alternative explanation.

I must tell you that I’m writing this under the influence of a natural high! Had a conversation tonight with two boys that each have been important to me in their own way. I had dreaded the first conversation but it went really well. I felt in control of what I was feeling and doing, for once. However, we still got a long way to go. The other conversation was stressful at first, but then I just decided not to let his demons play with me. They are his not mine, I can’t be his Buffy but I will always be there handing him the wooden stakes.